May be man lives in constant fears. As I read somewhere fear of loosing wealth, fear of loosing youth, fear of loosing health, fear of loosing honour , last but not least fear of loosing life. If I have to go further into the question what is loosing? Prospect of missing something you are already having on hand, or not having something which you hope to acquire in coming times. It is also being deprived of comfort zone which you are enjoying now or fear of getting miserable altogether.
I have a feeling that except fear of loosing life which is basic survival instinct, all other fears can be reviewed, mitigated and nullified with great deal of thinking. Contemplation is one face of our courage and the other being faith.
It is all but natural for children to have fears by virtue of their being miniature versions, and their inability to comprehend the realities, and their constant need to look for support. Fear of darkness and fear of unknown emboldened by incidents, peers, stories, fantasies are only to be dispelled by constant reassurance or by developing a kind of faith. I have been given the second path. Feared to pass through alleys with vacant lands and giant trees I was given a mantra of courageousness, chanting the name of Hanuman. I was told in my childhood that he is there to protect me from all the demons, evils and ill health. I was praying laying in my bed often down with typhoid to bestow me with a steel body like him (actually steel is a cheap parity, for Indians it is Vajra for hardness). What a kind of infusing spunk into the small brain which cannot see big reasons to be courageous. For years it kept me undaunted.
Fearlessness did both good and bad to me. Good because I could penetrate any where which earned me admiration and praise . Bad because I was sometimes looked with suspicion of my intentions and feared . I secretly know that they mistake an earthworm to be a snake. But I could do nothing about it I do know how to be otherwise.
Loosing youth really troubled me for sometime but as it is inevitable I have adjusted to it. Health becomes precious only when you loose it.I have great reluctance to be paranoid. Fear of loosing life perhaps , the most fundamental of survival instincts should scare us the most. We come to this world unasked for.We don't realize the gorgeousness of life untill we are threatened. World is existing for you only when you have some kind of wriggling and warm blood gushing through your veins. But bear it mind ,that aggression on life is the last kind of assault one would think of if not rare.
Honour..yes I attached great deal of importance to it. It is one thing which I could not easily write off. May be it is one of my fundamental core values by which I abide. I value it, but I don't fear loosing it if prooves to be desastrous for my survival.
By default all people tend to loose a lot by not being courageous. We can make or break our lives by inculcating it or failing to do so. We need to constantly remind ourselves that our fears are being encashed. Do not use your courage for wrong reasons. There is the difference between courage and outrage.
Our worst fears need to be answered . Drawing logical rejoinders can crack them. Funniest part of it is most of them are silly.Never let them devour you inside.If prayer can galvanize your strength there is nothing wrong in doing so. Affliction is worst than old school tag.
What made me to write all this? Am I trying to get intellectual? No. It is constant submission of humans to another human either for fear of loosing something or getting something which makes me sorrowful. From time immemorial courage and valour have been noble attributes. But seldom wars have been fought for human good. Human history folios are soiled with blood of eliminations. It is all about adorning few at the expense of many. At least now are we up against it?
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